Can I Die?

I hate the confusion

in my life.

So sick of all the strife

just hand me the knife.

I want to die,

hold the dagger

to my eye.

I'll never be a beggar,

I'll let you kill me if you try.

Give me the gun

Look at all this fun!

Do you see all the scars?

You wouldn't be able to believe it by far.

I act as if

nothing is wrong.

But you've never seen

how my days are so long.

You've never felt the 

heart break I feel

or seen the way I wish

it was unreal.

Can I die

and have no worries

about who is by your side?

Leave me missing you behind.

Not have to worry about it

always being in my mind.

Forget your kisses,

and wonder to myself,

"Is she still missing me?"

Never to know

the complete truth

of you.

And to never

understand and me too.

My Wish

The future is still uncertain, I know not where I'll be. 

But in the past few weeks I've prayed that you will be with me. 

My love has grown from day to day, I miss you more and more.

If love is hurting while apart, no wonder my heart is sore.

I hold you close within my heart and in my arms you lie.

I cannot help the way I feel, nor do I  wish to try. 

One thing I know the future brings each and every day.

I love you more and more, my love, in each and every way.  

The future holds uncertain thoughts and wonderment abound.

But I love you with all my heart and will always be around.

You need not fear the future, for I will be with you. 

I cannot help the way I feel, but the way I feel is true...

I hope someday that you will see the way my soul lies still. 

For all the love within my heart is strong and it is real. 

Someday I hope to make you mine, for the future of my life. 

And everyday I hope and pray that you will be my wife. 

This is just a simple plea, a simple wish of mine. 

That you will be with me until the end of time. 

I know that this is asking much, but much I do desire. 

I know you may not understand, but my heart is on fire. 

Each time I am with you, each time I hold you tight,

I wonder if it will be my last and if I have the right. 

For I am just a simple man and live a simple life. 

I only pray to God each night that you will be my wife. 

I cannot find the words to say that will make you mine.  

I only have one simple wish, to ask for all time.  

If all the words came rolling down, as water in the sea,

None would ever be the same as "will you marry me?"

Obsessed

Although I understand I can do nothing

To change the mistakes I've made

I hope when you read this you'll realize the truth

In what I'm about to say.

I'm not going to try to cover it up

Like many other people will do --

Instead I'll tell you I'm honest in saying

That all I want is you.

So many nights I've lain sleepless in bed

Meditating on your face

But I just can't face up to the fact

That in reality I've lost the race.

I doubt I could live without you around,

You mean the whole world to me --

If I could go anywhere on Earth

In your arms is where I'd want to be.

Too many tears have streamed down my face

To not let you know how I feel

At times it seems this whole thing is a dream

Until I remember. . . it's real.

I wish there was some way I could prove to you

How special I think you are

I'm tired of keeping these feelings inside --

It's gone way too far.

Never have I felt what I'm feeling right now --

You've put me in a trance

I promise I won't make you regret it

If you give me just half a chance.

I really don't think you fully understand

How much I care for you

But for some reason I get the feeling

That there's nothing I can really do.

I wouldn't think twice about giving my life

Just to keep you from harm

You're so much more perfect than I'll ever be --

Your voice, your smile, your charm.

You're all I ever think of anymore

When I hope or dream or cry

Countless times I've been thinking of you

Wishing I could die.

You don't understand how you've changed my life

I'll never be the same

You're more precious to me than all the money in the world

All the glory or power or fame.

I'd gladly give every single thing I own

Just to prove how much I care --

I'll never find anyone as perfect as you

You're far beyond compare.

There's really nothing else I can do

I guess this is the end

But before I stop I want to tell you

That you're an incredible friend.

I only have one more thing to say

That I really want you to know --

You'll always be an angel in my eyes

No matter where you go.

But no matter what people think of you --

If you're feeling lonely and sad,

Or if you can't think of any reason to live

And life is terribly bad

Or if you feel like you can't go on

Just remember that what I'm saying is true:

I don't care at all what happens, --

I'll still love you.

I Thank God He Sent You to Me

I thank God he sent you to me,

  For you and I were meant to be.

We have a bond too strong to break,

  We have a love no one can take.

In you, I have found a love so true,

  My heart is filled with love for you.

Every time I see you, my heart skips a beat,

  You make my life whole, you make my life complete.

My love for you grows more with each passing day,

  The thought of your gorgeous face takes my breath away:

Those brown eyes fill my soul with happiness,

  Those luscious lips I love to kiss.

The day when I become your husband,

  Will be the happiest day of my life.

Even thinking of that day makes me smile,

  I can't wait 'till I walk down that aisle.

I dream of that day when we'll both say, "I do"

  For always and forever... I will love you.

I Finally Know

Why do I love this girl so,

This girl that I really don't know?

She lies to me now, she did it from the start,

Yet still I continue to offer my heart.

Never have I felt a love so strong,

How could I have been so wrong?

She insists that she loves me, but it's plain to see, with me is 

Not where she wants to be.

Time and time again, I fall for her game,

I know my life will never be the same.

For I have never wanted someone so bad,

My heart aches for her- I feel so sad.

Tears stream down as I write how I feel,

It's so hard to face that her love wasn't real.

I know I should hate her, God knows how I've tried,

She’s made such a fool of me, she's cheated and lied.

For her, I once thanked the Lord above,

Now, I just pray I'll forget my love.

Soon she'll be out of here, away from this place,

How my heart breaks when I see her face.

Once October comes, I will see her no more,

Never again will she knock at my door.

Why Did I love this girl so?

She never loved me.

That...I finally know.

To Spend Forever

I give you my heart

Mind, body and soul,

I give you my love

For you make me whole.

I give you this promise

The promise to try,

I give you each breath

And the tears I cry.

I give you my past

My future and now,

I give you my thoughts

My hope and this vow.

To give you my voice,

And the music I sing,

I give you forever,

I give you this ring.

I give you my world,

All the pain and strife,

I give you my hand

Learn to share my life.

I give you this kiss

And these words I say,

"I'll cherish you always

As of this day."

I give you my faith

That these words are true,

For today, I swear,

To spend my life with you.

Never Have I Seen A Girl

Never have I seen a girl

Who's beauty shines through the world

Who has the most beautiful, tender, gorgeous face

Who looks so good, she makes my heart race.

She has the prettiest, most sparkling, dazzling eyes

It'll make you think she's from some place high

An angel from above, you would think

I hope someday, our hearts will link.

Never have I seen a girl

Who's sweetness is known throughout my world

Who has the biggest, kindest, sweetest heart

Who is so great, I'd never want to part.

She's the nicest girl I've ever met

Makes me feel great, for sure, that's a bet

She picks me up when I'm falling down

Making sure I don't make a frown

Well, it's getting close to the time

To tell that girl I want her to be mine

SUPRISE! This nice girl is you

Oh I hope to hear, "I love you too!"